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Am I not good enough?

Wed Jun 24, 2009, 1:28 PM
It's funny. Only a few people will get this but...it's a new feeling. I've never experienced it before. Thinking about it makes it worse so I'm keeping myself preoccupied with other things. I guess to get back to normal you have to sacrifice a few things and it takes a while. It makes you wonder about other things. Did I take things wrong? Is there something wrong with me? I can't wait until I go to Pittsburgh. I hope everything changes. I'll miss some things but I think it's time to move on. I just hope things go back to being normal soon. It really sucks. I'm glad I have one person in particular to help me through this because otherwise I would be totally lost. Thank you so much. You have a lot more knowledge on shit like this then me. @_@

I wonder how much of an impact I've made or others have made on me. Hopefully, I've accomplished something in someone's life somewhere along the life line.

I hope that person will talk to me and tell me everything still. I'm not sure I can guarantee I'll be able to respond normally at first but I'll try. Maybe someday you'll experience this feeling. If you do I'll be there for you. I'll try to be. I want to keep in touch still I want things to be the same but right now...god it just is really bad. I know it's hard for you to talk but if you could make that effort more it would be appreciated.

Ugh. This studying thing isn't working out. I'm so worried about everything for my future right now. I hate putting on a happy face when I'm not happy. Don't ask me how I am sometimes I just want to be left alone. Especially if you read this, however does and you are wondering what's up. Don't ask, and don't pry into my personal business please. You don't have to know.

Funny part is I'm sure this is just a small little bump in the life line but wow it sure doesn't feel like it. I have so many other things to be depressed over so it's selfish but I can't help it. At least I finally got ready today, I did nothing but at least I got ready lol.

It's super weird because depression usually makes me eat more but it's been the opposite lately. SO FYI DEPRESSION=GOOD DIETING. /shot

((ALSO ANOREXIC PEOPLE WITH BIG NOSES FTW))./shotdown again

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  • Current Residence: Somewhere in Pennsylvania.
  • Interests: Reading, running, watching movies, helping out as much as I can, learning about medical things.
  • Favourite movie: Any horror movie and there are just way too many other ones. Last of the Mohicans, Labyrinth...etc.
  • Favourite band or musician: I like all oldies music. Specifically from the 70's and 80's. Also, Opera and musicals.
  • Favourite genre of music: Oldies.
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod Nano.
  • Favourite game: I just lost the game...
  • Favourite cartoon character: Tough choice. I don't know.
  • Personal Quote: There's a lot of good ones out there. But... "Carpe Diem" is one of my favorites.

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Mood: Shame ~NotAStupidCat Oct 26, 2009, 12:44:06 PM
Thanks for the deviantwatch, or whatever it's called! xD;;
Would I happen to know you? I see you live in PA? :3
Aaaand sorry if I do... I barely remember my own name, much less my friends' usernames :ashamed:

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I have often wished I had time to cultivate modesty... But I am too busy thinking about myself.
~Edith Sitwell
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~Emo-Enchanted Oct 29, 2009, 1:52:48 PM
Sorry, I forgot to tell you Monica. XD It's Haley. *IS YOUR STALKER NOW...EVERYWHERE*

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"You accuse me of murder; and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience, destroy your own creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man!" ---<--<--@
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~NotAStupidCat Nov 1, 2009, 4:30:35 PM
ZOMG. Shoulda figured. Yay stalkers 8D

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I have often wished I had time to cultivate modesty... But I am too busy thinking about myself.
~Edith Sitwell
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~der-kuchen Apr 28, 2009, 9:43:15 PM
And get me a pizza... pizza... ... PIZZA!!
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~Emo-Enchanted May 12, 2009, 8:03:06 AM
PIZZA! D8<

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"You accuse me of murder; and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience, destroy your own creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man!" ---<--<--@
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~IceburgDockOne Mar 30, 2009, 4:49:29 PM
I lost, >>

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"If I can't be myself then who will? Will I continue to live this life pretending to be what I'm not?"
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~Emo-Enchanted May 12, 2009, 8:03:25 AM
And you made me lose and yourself lose again. :l

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"You accuse me of murder; and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience, destroy your own creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man!" ---<--<--@
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~IceburgDockOne May 12, 2009, 2:47:08 PM
Yes, I lost... Plus, please keep in mind that I don't like people promising not to tell something and then telling someone that something. :|

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IceburgxFranky club-> [link]
"If I can't be myself then who will? Will I continue to live this life pretending to be what I'm not?"
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~Emo-Enchanted May 13, 2009, 8:23:17 AM
Listen, if it is what I think you're saying how do you know it was ME that told? You don't have any actual proof but either way wouldn't you have TOLD people otherwise? For all you know you could have told someone at school and that person could have relayed the information back. Or you know stuff can be found in conversations online/other stuff. Just point that out before you hurl accusations at me. I think it's your own responsibility to tell people close to you what you plan on doing with your life no matter how much you're laughed at. It's YOUR choice, YOUR pathway. No one has to stop you. :/ So before causing a huge scene about it consider those. I find it sad you would not trust me because maybe I could have hinted close to SOMEONE YOU LOVE what you plan on doing with your life. I really don't see letting people close to you know about your future. A career path idea shouldn't be secret to begin with unless you plan on being a stripper, but that's another story.

Now unless you have some problem that you HAD to keep it secret, such as parents not paying for college bills if they knew that's another story. Although, if you really want to be something, you're going to be it regardless if you get help from your parents or not. You just have to work your ass off in life to get there. I'll tell you now that one of the reasons I'm in nursing is because (not only do I love it) but because my parents wouldn't have paid for an art degree. Not all all. If I had really wanted to do art though, yes I would have gotten a job, moved out...gone somewhere. Something like that. But I didn't want it enough and that's why I'm here where I'm at now.

I might as well throw it out there that I don't appreciate some of the stuff you say to me/act either but I have not complained. If you want to know about those you can message me privately. But don't you dare pin this all on me and claim I'm no longer a good friend and be all emo over it. Because that is utterly ridiculous. I'm here to support you NOT make you look horrible.

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"You accuse me of murder; and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience, destroy your own creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man!" ---<--<--@
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~TheSporkiee Mar 1, 2009, 8:52:42 AM
Rape happens.

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Always look on the bright side of life~
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